5/29/12

Sat and talked with God this evening... Long intimate talk about everything, because I was overwhelmed with emotions and could only pray about it.

I am so blessed and so humbled by this young ladies presence in my life that I let go completely... I seriously do not know how to handle the reality of these feelings. I am so connected to her that I am walking away from the life I have to build a life with her and it feels like the right thing to do.

I have already deleted "friends" from my life and do not miss them. I am letting go of all the negativity and following this path because it was laid in front of me at the right time, in the right way... I have not yet held her hand, felt her kiss or held her in my arms, but I have felt her heart and soul, through her words, through her pictures. We share our days and nights through texts and e-mails and phone conversations and we laugh and smile and talk openly.

I have a beautiful lady that has chosen me out of all others she could have chosen... she chose me!

There is this joy that I feel that is beyond words or expressions and I thank God for this gift. I am going to show my appreciation everyday, because she deserves to be appreciated daily...

I am really trying to accept the fact that I deserve to be this happy.