8/3/12

From then till now... I discovered lost feelings, started and lost a relationship but defined friendship as well as strengthened my relationship with God! I discovered through being honest with myself that selfishness was deeply rooted in me and I learned to release it. I learned that I am a jealous man as much as I deny the title, my actions defined me differently, so I am working on releasing that as well. I learned the power of faith and witnessed the strength and courage of someone who walks in that faith. I am now walking in that faith as well and pray that my courage and strength grows so as to sustain this path I am on now.

From then till now... My heart was filled and emptied and refilled again with new found faith, yet and still there is an undeniable pain that will last for awhile. My heart hurts because I still fall for her every day and hope eternal for something more. That will never go away and I will never give up on that hope, but the balance between that which I desire and hope for and the friendship that continues to grow is only differentiated by my understanding of my own selfishness. At the end of the day I only want for her happiness. That is all that matters and that statement must be and will be reflected in my actions moving forward.

From then till now... I have learned compassion, how to be a better christian and most definitely gained motivation to be a better man. My mind is no longer crowded and though spontaniety abounds more freely, I follow Gods plan for my life and am at peace with each day I am blessed with.

from then til now... I have learned so much and am more open to the possibilities as I have also closed the door on my past. Moving forward and holding on. More patience, closer to God, walking and running in faith with eyes wide open and selfless... It feels so good to be this happy, even with a pain in my heart I am happy.