6/13/12

Today was a bit surreal for me...

I witnessed the emotions of loosing a family member that had been around for 99 years.I experienced the love of family and friends and the positivity they shared between one another. I felt true appreciation for my presence as well as their acceptance of me into their family.

I let go and shared openly my joys as of late and the new adventure I was on as well as who had become a motivating force in my life. Needless to say the women of the house all grew more curious...lol

At the end of the day I felt brand new. I was so full of hope for what could be and my thoughts were filled with what my new life would be like...

Then with a sudden and brutal impact, reality hit me. All this time I have been stating that which I wanted and had not fully accepted that the one I defined as in my future was not yet as certain of her own future.

I feel bad, sad, perplexed, and a bit selfish...

This day has been surreal to say the least simply because I have run the gambit of emotions and now simply want to sleep.